&. August 16, 2005  

It's kind of funny how summer defeats all the resolutions you make. You forget everything that you said you would do during the summer and just go through it. I remember last year I had summer school and after I got home from it, I spent all day on the computer playing RO. This year I said I'd spend all summer studying hard for the SAT and SAT IIs, as well as doing my summer APUSH hw (which I'm making progress on right now: three more essays and memorization for the test). And as usual, I've been procrastinating up until now. I have no time management skills whatsoever. Hopefully that'll change over the course of the coming year.

When I think about it, being so unmotivated is really scary. It means that I'm not doing what I do for myself, that I'm doing everything only because it has to be done. That's how I feel right now compared to earlier years in middle school and elementary school. Maybe it's just the summertime getting to me, but I think I might have used that excuse too much already.

~ Remembering the cherry blossoms @  4:18 PM