I could sit here all day wondering about things and not come up with an answer. Go over the problem, check what I did, and try to figure out the outcome. Sort of like a math problem, huh? Maybe that's why I never did like math. I never checked my work much until just recently. I've always made careless mistakes. I can't make any promises to myself, but I say from now on, I'll take the time to make sure what I'm doing is right. I won't take actions without thinking first. Though it takes time to go over things, I'd rather take the time than regret what I did after. I need to acknowledge the consequences of my actions.

And even now... I'm still a kid. Still sitting on the swings, rocking back and forth, trying to see if I can reach the sky.

I've also wondered what gives people true wisdom. We learn a lot in school, for sure: history, science, math, and plenty of other things. We're told to study hard so the knowledge can be used in our future careers. But it's our own experiences that teach us what we don't learn in school. However, it's the individual's decision that changes everything. I admit, I've never really worked all that hard in school. I don't regret it as much as I should, I guess. I like to be lazy, I like to have fun. That doesn't mean I don't study at all, though. School's still one of my priorities.

Wisdom... like what elders know. I suppose we'll only learn when we grow old ourselves. I've thought about what people go through during life. I grow scared because I know there's still a long way ahead. Full of change. Nothing stays the same, for time doesn't wait. And I'm afraid of change because I've grown accustomed to life as it is.

With each passing birthday, I always tell myself, "I'm one year older now." It doesn't really make a difference, for I'm still the immature child that I was before. I don't think I've really grown to understand anything about life. Maybe only that it gets harder. But I'm still unable to deal with the problems I have and they grow bigger each time. I used to look straight ahead and see the sky, but now, I look up and realize how vast it truly is.