&. April 07, 2004  

Life is, well, same. Lots of tests and projects coming up. ._. Lit test, Bio test, and a Japanese project. Also, the Pops Concert is in May, I think. Our music seems so hard. ><;; They're also cool songs, so, I suppose it balances out. For Japanese, we have to do a cooking project. I have to write a two-page essay on a topic about Japanese foods (in English, thankfully) and a half-page summary in Japanese. Having chosen to do this, I won't complain about it. We have to talk 5 minutes for our oral presentation and this should be enough.

Yesterday was his birthday. I gave him the present with a letter. No, it wasn't a love letter. ^^;; It was just some things that I thought I should say. You know, I'm never able to say a lot of things in person. Even though I've told someone I liked them before, I really don't have much courage. My friend's told me how I should be a motivational speaker. In order to find my own strength, I've decided to become a better friend and help other's with their problems. I'm unable to use strength given to me by others, but I do listen to their advice and I'm grateful for it. It's just that I'm not good enough of a friend... I could be better.

~ Remembering the cherry blossoms @  3:48 PM

&. April 14, 2004  

Bleh, STAR testing going on. Thankfully, next week is spring break. :D Free time. Yay. Well, technically, I have nothing to be complaining about because I have a ton of free time compared to a lot of other people. So, I shall keep my mouth shut. -_- Just dropping in to say I'm not dead! :P

~ Remembering the cherry blossoms @  4:46 PM

&. April 15, 2004  

STAR testing is over... yay! Tomorrow is the History test, and since we don't have History, we go to school later. ^^ Heheh, I'm going to die next year. It's always said that sophomore year sucks the most. And it probably does. However, I can't say anything yet. Only six weeks left of school. Then summer vacation. Over the summer, I'll supposedly be studying for the PSAT, take Driver's Ed, and go to summer school. After all that, I'm going to Taiwan. I'd still rather go to Japan... T_T

~ Remembering the cherry blossoms @ 10:23 PM

&. April 26, 2004  

Ahaha, I died again. -_- Well, anyhow, I'm glad to be back from break knowing that I got good grades on my tests. I was also happy from talking to this guy I "have an eye on." He's the person my friend was trying to set me up with. He's a great guy, really. ^^;; I should really talk to him more often. I only talk to him before and during Lit, which is the only class I have with him. However, I see him around during lunch and brunch, considering where I hang out is pretty close to where he usually is.

Break was game-filled. I bet you I've never played more games than that. There was this one night I played till four in the morning, then tried to go to sleep. But then, I couldn't sleep well, so I got up at about eight or so. I only went to sleep because my online friend was telling me to. :P This proves my dad wrong about me not being able to stay up late. It's probably true most of the time, though. So, I met some new people online and stuff. It's all good.

Sensei was right from what she said in Japanese today. How people say they want to do this and that before break, but never actually do it during break. I said I was going to beat a few video games, but never did. The next vacation from now is Memorial Weekend. About a month away. -.-;; Even if I didn't do what I wanted to do, I had a great break and I'm happy that I did. :D We didn't go anywhere at all; that's okay because I know that my parents are really, really busy. We saw Ella Enchanted, too. Although I heard it was changed a lot from the book, I don't remember. I read the book a long time ago. ^^;; It was good anyway.

~ Remembering the cherry blossoms @  4:28 PM

&. April 28, 2004  

I walked home from school yesterday and did so today, too. Call me crazy if you'd like. :P Anyhow, it was really scary yesterday because I stopped to get a drink of water and this huge branch fell down in the road about a feet away. I was all like, "Oh my gosh..." O_O If I hadn't stopped to get a drink, it would've hit me for sure. According to my calculations, it takes me about 40 to 45 minutes to walk home at a leisurely pace.

Today's weather was pretty good too. In the morning, it was cloudy and cool. Once the sun came out, it started warming up, but there was still a cool breeze. It was good for when we went running in PE. It was also really nice while I walked home. :D

~ Remembering the cherry blossoms @  4:26 PM

&. April 29, 2004  

"It's all in your head." So true, huh? A friend of mine, a sort of mentor, told me that all my problems and worries came from my insecurity. It's correct that I'm really insecure, I guess. -_-;; Well, my friend also said to chill out. The "you're still young" kind of talk, you know. The complete opposite of the parents' thoughts that you should be studying and not enjoying yourself thing, which brings up something.

The other day, I showed my dad the list of classes I'm taking next year. He was silent as he looked it over. Then, when I'm about to leave his room, he goes, "You guys study so little. Back in Taiwan, we studied ten hours a day." It's that thing. My mom's never said anything like that, so I've always felt the pressure coming from my dad. He's not satisfied with my grades, etc. etc.

It's really similar to the things we're reading in The Joy Luck Club for Lit. I kind of wish I had better communication with my parents, too. Before we started reading the book, the teacher had us write a page about our moms. It made me realize the many things I didn't know about my mom and that what I did know were such little things. But then, when I ask my parents about such things, they give me odd glances.

"My mother is very kind." I think that was the statement I heard in almost every paper when they were read aloud. Then there were the people that have mothers who are very strict. It's too optimistic, but I think that all mothers love their children the same. However, I won't know until I'm a parent, right?

~ Remembering the cherry blossoms @  7:15 PM